Joanna Priscilla

June 5-  I got rear-ended by a drunk girl

June 7- My daddy got here from the PI

June 9- My cousin and nephew left for Florida-who knows when I'm gonna see them again.. :( *sigh*

         - My grandma's 2nd death anniversary

June 21- I got my new car

June 24- Went to my co-worker's birthday party

June 26- My car was parked and was hit by a truck. 

            -We had a meeting to update what's going on with our company

June 27- My friend Jackie got laid off from work

June 28- Angel and Denny got married. It was nice to see them again after so long.

           - Manny Pacquiao won

There were more bad things than that of good ones-- I'm not a big fan of this month. I've been really down and depressed with all the crazy things that went on. Fortunately, there were good things like seeing my daddy again, not getting hurt well, maybe just a bit from the accident.. stuff like that.

Hopefully, July will be much better. Goodbye June. I'm so glad you are done and over with.

June 25th, 2008

10:45AM

Siyempre, nanahimik ang koche ko sa parking lot sa tabi ng Burger King.. Nakita ko nalang nung lunch, pagkita ko, may note na nakaipit dun sa may windshield tapos sabi nung note:

"I'm sorry I bumped your vehicle. Please call me for my insurance information.. Melissa Taylor (925) ***-****.

Umakyat ata lahat ng dugo ko sa ulo ko. Nabaliw ako!! Oh my gulay, wala pa ngang two weeks old ang koche ko, binangga nanaman.

The damage: rear bumper and some light scratches on the tail light.. *sigh*

So ayun, nagpa-estimate ako. I went to Mike's Auto Body shop. Abutin daw ng $1500++ ang repair pati car rental ko nanaman. E sabi nung babae, out of pocket nalang daw niya babayaran para wala sa record niya sa insurance niya--- hello, pag tawag ko sa kanya, sige na raw at sa insurance nalang daw niya ipapasok..

There is no way in hell that I am going to let her get away with the damage she's caused my car. She wants the easy way out (like that was gonna happen).

The first I spoke to her, sige daw, insurance na daw niya then I guess, she told her husband about it and then she called me and said that it was only going to cost her $300 for repairs so she might as well not report it to the insurance company. Ya right!! It's a brand new car. Who is she kiddin? She must be smokin crack.

Nakakainis. Naiinis ako.. Kapag sinuswerte ka naman talaga noh? Buhay talaga..

At take note ha? Truck nanaman!! She was driving a 2007 Ford Expedition and the damage to her car was minimal. So friggin' wrong. hmpf!

Ohwell.. Lucky day!

When I was driving on freeway 5 and reached the mountains, my right ear didn't pop. So I could barely hear now (since Friday night). :(

I will go to the doctor's tomorrow to have it checked. *sniff sniff*  

I am starting to get bored with Friendster, Multiply, Facebook and Myspace.. I think this is a disease.

I get really fond of something and then after a while, I just get bored. BORED!! .. then I give myself time to miss it then there, I get fond of it again..

What creeps me out is the idea that this attitude towards things says so much about how I am.. My personality and pretty much the entirety of my being-- how I see things, my approach in lifeand all that craziness.. I must admit, it's true and it's scary..  

So I should think of ways to fight this. Although change is not an overnight process, I will try.. at least to the best of my ability. I won't promise but I will do everything within my power.. heehee!

I get bored with work, too. I get bored doing the same thing over and over and over and over.. *gag*

Life is never boring but some people choose to be bored. The concept of boredom entails an inability to use up present moments in a personally fulfilling way. Boredom is a choice; something you visit upon yourself, and it is another of those self-defeating items that you can eliminate from your life.

Instead of complaining, maybe I should think of ways to get over this-- say, maybe break the routine and spice my life up a little bit.. But how? Find a new hobby that doesn't have anything to do with computers-- I feel like a nerd being on the computer all day and when I get home, be on it again.. So wrong.

Realize:

When I was i the Philippines, I got so bored with my life there too that I wanted to come here-- for a change. And I did.

So after two years, I am starting to get bored with my life here. I want to go home (which I will but it's merely just three weeks. Bummer!).

Ang tao talaga, walang contentment. Sala sa init. Sala sa lamig. Ang labo. Olats!  

I'm sure this feeling will pass. As soon as possible sana. Pero no one's gonna be able to help me kungdi ang sarili ko din..

Ohwell, we'll see.. Eto nanaman ako at kung anu-ano nanaman ang iniisip.. Nagsimula sa na-bore sa networking then biglang sa life na kaagad. Baliw na nga ata ako!

But when you come to think of it, every human being, I believe, goes through this phase at one instance or another..

What is boredom, anyways? Sabi ni Soren Kierkegaard (Either/Or):

Thank you Lord at nalampasan ko nanaman itong isang linggo na 'to.. Guide and protect me the coming week ulit ha?

Happy Weekend, ya'll!

*Sigh* 

It's one of those days when you just feel really down and sluggish. Maybe I didn't get enough sleep? Or maybe I have too much on my mind?

Either way, I hope things will all get better-- Like I always complain about: Life and all its complexities. Yun lang naman ang drama ko today..

Sometimes, gusto ko sana na stealth mode lang..

Don't get me wrong, masarap mabuhay pero kapag madami ka nga lang naiisip, parang nakakawala ng gana.

Kausap ko yung friend ko kanina, tinanong ko yun kung naniniwala ba siya sa karma. Sagot niya, hindi daw.. dahil lahat daw ng bagay ay nasa Law of attraction.

So kung negative vibes ka parati, then negative nga yung dadating sa yo. Kapag positive vibe naman, good things naman. I-google ko pa nga raw kung ayaw kong maniwala.. He makes sense naman..

Pati yung sabi nga na "History repeats itself.. " Totoo daw yun. Hirit kasi nung isa kong friend, " sa buhay daw, kapag nadapa ka at nagkamali, e kapag daw hindi ka natuto sa pagkakadapa na yun, e uulitin mo lang din.. "

Paki-konek konek nga yung mga sinasabi ko, parang irrelevant. haha!! epekto ng tatlong tasang tsaa ata to! .. Kaya Lord, send me the Holy Spirit para maging strong ako sa napakamasalimuot na endeavor kong ito.. O drama lang to kasi wala akong magawa.. hehe!

Sige, kahit na medyo nasa ilalim ang gulong ng buhay ko ay tatawa nalang ako.. Baka ako magkawrinkles lang e.. Hehe!

Paano nga ba ako hindi matutuwa dapat, dito ako sa work pero eto ako at type ng type at nagbo-blog! hehe! :D

Baboo na nga.. Magwowork nalang ako para naman masulit ng mga Kanong 'to ang ibinabayad nila sa akin. LMAO!

I was never a big fan of visiting Asian countries.. But for some peculiar reason, I found myself strolling down and wanderin' the streets of Seoul and Taipei.

Korea. Nothing fancy. It felt as if everywhere I looked, I see a bunch of chinky-eyed people as if I were in the streets of Ongpin or something. (Yeah, yeah.. It's the Chinese people who make up the population. They all look the same to me.) Go figure.

You look around and you see signs and billboards of some weird writing. They make up of circles and some weird shapes and it actually means something to other people..

It's impossible that I live here... Nope. No way. Uh-uh. Good enough that I have visited.. Period. And my, remind me of that foul smell the moment you enter their airport!! It smelled so bad-- kinda like onions and sweat put together.. It was really old and the weather was hot, too.. Wonder if they have ever heard of the word "airconditioning", and maybe air freshener?

... and even worse, I lost my wallet where I had my money. Survival. Hellooo?? Foreign country? No english? .. Thanks to my mom for she saved me. Of course, she thought I was really stupid.

At least, I had a real taste of the Korean BBQ they are famous for in Korea!!  Other than that, I can live without the smell, the people or the country. I'm not racist. Don't get me wrong. It was just an adventure I could have let pass.

Then there was Taipei.. I went there twice. Both times, the weather was bad.. It was gloomy, the next, there was a heavy rain..

Like I said, nothing big-- except maybe during then, F4 was popular. It was a big hit in the PI that I thought to myself, maybe I will see them in person, get their autographs and have my picture taken with them! LOL!  I'm just kidding!

At the airport, I don't know if people there are just snobs or what not.. There was something about them that I wasn't really comfortable about. I went with my sister both times and she thought the same thing too.. Hmm.. (Again, we are NOT racists.)

Of course, with the weather, we couldn'treally do anything, can we?.. I didn't do much shopping ( I wasn't with my mother, remember? heehee!) So I guess, there really isn't much to say there-- it's a foreign country. Heck do I know!

The language they speak, it was funny-- it sounded so mellow and sweet. As if I was being serenaded in a different language. (at least, I said something nice. j/k!)

Your home is where the heart is.. So with the PI, even if the traffic makes you feel like you wanna commit suicide, the weather is so hot, you could die of dehydration, I still think it's the most beautiful place I have ever been to--- the beaches, clubs, the malls and all those fun stuff! (you break the law and still get away with it.. classic!)

So if you ever find me roamin' the streets of Ermita for some cash for shopping, then, you wouldn't really have to wonder why I am there. (Just playin' with the Ermita part-- but maybe. LMAO! )

Seriously, sure I can travel the world but you will only call one place, just one place in all the vastness of the universe, your home-- and for me, that's the Philippines. (maybe here, too!)

So I have to make up my mind with that just one place home-- maybe it could be two?

I wanna go to Europe.. That would be next stop.  I should buy those cds where they teach you basic French or some other weird language.. Maybe I'll go by myself. Just maybe. (and get lost! yeah right!)  that's an idea!

Well, it's Monday again and I couldn't help but wonder, "what purpose do I have here? Again, I'll be doin the same old shit I do pretty much everyday.. "  .. It's a never ending list of things to do-- same thing, different time. Redundancy. *barf* I feel nauseated.

Of course, being the slacker and daydreamer that I am,  I don't have any answer to that query. (I get lost in my world-of-make believe.) Then, I spoke to my long-time friend Markus. Would you believe we've been friends for eight, yes, 8 friggin' years! (Markee, it's not that I'm  complaining. I just find it really amazing! lol!)   

So he explained to me what life is about--- we all serve a purpose for existing. It was rather vague--well, at least, some parts were. Life is a journey and we will only know what is when we actually get there. --- 'Ahh, yun pala ang plano ni God. Kaya pala ganun.."

"Seek God first and He will  give you the desires of your heart." he said approvingly. Maybe we get too preoccupied with all the worldly things that we fail miserably to acknowledge God's presence in all that surrounds us. Without Him, then we all wouldn't be here. Lifeless. Maybe God wants me to surrender all of me unto Him-- and then, at His right time, in His plan, He will give me what He knows is best for me-- because He loves me.

It really isn't because I want something doesn't mean it's what's best for me-- it does not mean it's meant for me. I am given what I need.

There is a big difference between want and need. My blessings are what I think God knows I need-- at the same time, is best for me. See how that works? Undeniably, He never failed to deem Himself true.

I lost something/someone and I was completely torn apart. Yet, He has given me something/someone better! .. and I couldn't be more grateful but of course, it doesn't end there.. See below:

(Exodus 34:14)  For thou shalt worship no other god: for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God:

God expects faithfulness.  Faithfulness in heart and action. He wants love and obedience.  He does not take well to the cheating heart.  Just as we do not take well to a cheating heart in our spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend, He does not take well to a cheating heart either.  Just as we are not able to accept infidelity in our spouse/bf/gf, He does not accept infidelity either.

Teka, no matter how hard I try to put all of these in my own words, I will not be able to fully explain it e..

(Mark, if you're reading this, let me know what you think or if you wanna add something or what not.. )

All I know is, everyday, I try to be the best that I could be so God can be proud of me too..  Kasi He's been too nice to me inspite my shortcomings and of course, I'm human-- may mga wrongdoings din ako. But everytime I stumble and fall, He never runs out of giving me another chance. One too many chances na nga, nakakahiya na minsan. Pero kapag nagmahal ka, as long as you believe in that person, as long as you have faith and trust sa tao na yun, hindi ka magdadalawang isip na pagbigyan siya ulit--- si God pa.

Kaya, wala akong karapatan na magreklamo. Ang kapal ko nanaman yata.. It's a good day. It's a great day. God loves me and I am blessed.  

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.

Amen.

Love withers with predictabilty; its very essence is surprise and amazement. To make love a prisoner of the mundane is to take its passion and lose it forever.

I went to the movies and saw PS I Love You..

I swear, the movie was just starting and then I started crying na.. muka na akong gago. haha! :D

I suggest everyone watch it kasi it'll make you appreciate talaga your significant other more.. Or if hindi mo na-appreciate siya now, ilo-love mo siya bigla agad.. :) haha! :D

It also made me realize how much I love him too-- and made me realize how lucky I am to be with somebody who makes me feel like I am his most valued possession (naging object-- object of desire! haha! priceless ang beauty ng lola niyo. haha!) seriously, he shows me and tells me na I am the only one for him and that I am loved with utmost sincerity and loyalty: that he does not see himself with anyone else but me-- that I am the greatest gift God has ever bestowed upon him.

So yeah, ang sarap lang ng feeling.. I am inlove-- madly.

Yun lang.  Watch it huh?

I was off work for 3 days and I was sick.. Then there was the weekend and I was still sick. Now, it's a brand new week and I'm still fuckin' sick.

What the hell?